Is it normal that i hate / hate myself for coming out?

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Recently I was taking a walk with my band mate who I've been writing with for a while. Were also very good friends that have known each other for quite a bit. I've recently decided to try being more open about my bisexuality, at least to my close friends. I've been meaning to tell him, and after many failed attempts I ended up telling him at the end of the night. He was totally fine with it and yet, the next day I woke up with a heavy feeling of dread, as if I made a mistake. I know I wanted him to know but at the same time I regret it, and though coming out is supposed to be good I hate the proccess, and I hate myself everytime I do it. Is this normal? Does anyone else feel this?

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  • Tommythecaty
    3 years ago

    Is someone saying they’re bi even a thing anyone cares about or takes seriously.

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  • CountessDouche
    3 years ago

    Twisted. Maybe you shouldn't be mad at yourself. Maybe you should be mad at the rest of the world. For having to admit your sexuality. For that even being a thing. Gross. You should never have to justify how you feel. It's fine. It's fucking shameful that you would ever feel ashamed about it

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      3 years ago

      I guess so, I grew up in a school where all the boys were quite homophobic, and am in a family that goes to church every week praying to a homophobic religion. I may have internalised self hatred despite the fact that I 100% support LGBTQ people, I just can't seem to support myself being part of it as well.

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      • CountessDouche
        3 years ago

        I'm so sorry you feel that way. It's really awful & sad. I think internalized self loathing can be one of the most destructive and harmful things someone could have in their life.

        Whenever that tarded debate about homosexuality being unnatural comes up, I always think of people like you. Because you didn't choose this. If you had a choice, you would've picked different, woukdn't you? So, railing & seething about something that you can't control or change. That is pointless & frustrating & destructive. It serves no purpose because it just doesn't go anywhere.

        This is common though. The self hating gay is a stereotype for a reason. Would you be open to seeking support from others that have gone through the same thing? There must be support groups?

        This is just no way to live & it's not ok. I hope you can find the help you need & make peace with this. My heart goes out to you.

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