Is it normal that i had sex with my best friends bf but i dont feel bad?
Long story short is my best friend started dating a guy that I was messing around with first. This guy was was sprung on me the night I might him and lived right above me so eventually after partying with him for a while, we started messing around but never had sex. I just never wanted to take it that far with him. There werr days I liked him, and days I didnt. Im kinda weird like that. Well about 3 months ago my best friend started messing around with him. When I tell you this girl has been around, I mean this girl has been AROUND. But at the time me and him were just being friendly so it was whatever. Well then a week later she tells me theyre dating. Total shock. And naturally for me, Im a little jealous. My jealousy turned into spite not too much longer later when my friend pretty much dropped off the face of the earth bevause she wanted to be with him so much and started acting so rude. Not only did losing her piss me off, losing him did too. So one night when she was at work me and him were drinking and one thing led to another. We ended up talking about how we had always wanted to sleep together. Made plans pretty much. Then she got home snd he stsrted being really men to her till she finally went home. We texted and I went to his apartment. He rocked my fuckin wooorld. It was the first time I ever let a guy give me oral sex and the first time I ever orgasmed wthout doing it myself. AMAZING. I went home and afterwards he tried breaking up with her to be with me but I said no because I had thought about it and I didnt know if I would want to be with him if it werent for him being in a relationship with her. I know its fucked up. They have a place together now and I come over and he will give me looks snd touch me and say sexual things when shes not around. I feel bad in a way but at the same time I dont. But I havent slept with him since buy Its like all the bullshit in our friendship has made me stop caring. And even though theyre the ones that are dating, in a way I feel like hes mine. I feel kinda guilty, but I dont know if I wouldnt do it again. Is it normal?