Is it normal that i feel this way after so many losses and catastrophes?

In my family have been many deaths. The ones who died: my daughter, a wife to a brain tumor, my sister's first child, my father, my mother, my nephew to alcoholism, his dad due to the same, a cousin at 13 (hit on a bicycle), two best friends right before HS (car flew over a cliff), one after HS died in the military in battle.

At the same time is an additional current of tragedy that runs thru our family: being really wealthy (inheritances plus self-made) then losing it; I have been thru this twice, two of my sisters also; other issues involving theft of heirlooms to unknown persons who trespassed, etc. One of the people that did this to one of my sisters was my father's ex-business partner.

Also betrayals from supposedly best-friends and lovers, spouses, etc, not only in my life but among my siblings as well.

I just don't trust anyone, I don't believe in owning material possessions, and I don't think any relationship will last as all the people I care for die or back-stab/abandon me and/or my family members, and I'm starting to get tired of people really easily - they either keep my interest/agree with my moral stances or they're out, including lovers. I feel life is a sadistic journey, I wish I'd never been born, in fact. I have never had any control over anything in my life, and when I tried to get any, I was always squashed like an insect, either by God or people, and sometimes by both.

I am turning into an elitist who despises humanity, and I have no interest in making friends either, because I sense most people are either evil, stupid, or both, and I don't want to waste my time, and I CERTAINLY don't want to mentor or do things for charity, as it is ME that needs things, ME that needs support, ME that needs control, success, the upper hand, power, vindication, revenge. I have done charitable work many, many times in the past (without thought of personal gain) but karma never returns, or should I say only bad karma does.

BTW I have not mentioned the dozens of other kinds of calamities that have befallen me, so I will mention three: being hit by a drunk driver, eyewitness to a murder and had my life threatened, being pushed over a wall by a dog (without provocation whatsoever) and breaking a vertebra.

It makes me feel like punching God in the face and saying: "How DARE you do this shit to me you asshole???"

Is it normal to feel this way after what I've been thru?