Is it normal that i feel i have no other choice than to bottle my emotions?

There are two kinds of angry people - explosive and implosive.

Explosive is the type of individual you see screaming at the cashier for not taking his coupon.

Implosive is the cashier who remains quiet day after day and then finally shoots everyone in the store. You're the cashier.

No, no, no. I'm the guy in the frozen food section diallin' 911. I swear.

And everyday she'd go to the river with a message in a bottle sayin'
'Please, God help me I don't wanna live to see tommarow'
Each day she'd scrounge for a tiny shred of hope
Just to wish the bottle would stay afloat
But every single solitary day, the bottle seems to sink
I don't know why but the bottle always sinks
She never sees it happen, but the bottle always sinks
Now only the bottom of the river knows what she really thinks.

I highly recommend therapy. Someone is there to both rely on AND teach you how to deal with your own emotions.

Please, talk about it.

I've always bottled my emotions. It ended up in really fighting my emotions. I can totally relate to TheProph, I started to feel less and less. Kind of bittered actually, it left me with a lot of bad thoughts. I changed, in a negative way.

You don't sound happy and bottling these emotions will only make you unhappier. I think there are a lot of people on this site who would love to hear the things you can't say to others. Maybe you should even consider a psychologist, I think it's a pity I never went to one.

Yeah it's normal, but you should get over it, trust me.

I started doing that years ago when I was going through some pretty deeply painful things in my life, and just never stopped. The point I'm at now, I feel absolutely nothing. No anger, no sadness, no happiness, nothing. It's a HORRIBLE way to live.

You can also bottle your raspberry flavored lemonade.

I tend to bottle things up too and let me tell you, that is not good for you at all. I bottled up all of my emotions for about a 14 months once, i thought everything was fine. Then all of a sudden one of my friends had to start his active duty and I wasn't there for his last day, that was my breaking point and I cried for about a good 15 minutes.

You need release, trust me. That's why humans cry; for release.

I feel much better now though

Whats the source thats causing all these overwhelming emotions? Is it yourself? (idk some people can be wayy too harsh on themselves and think negatively/pessimistic..etc)

If its yourself who else can help you control your emotions other than yourself? It starts with you. Do away with these "these emotions control me" "im too weak to control them"

I had an ex boyfriend who was like this, and honestly, his exact words were like this "Im sorry I cant control my emotions" to explain his bits of rage when he'd lash out at me. It ultimately pushed me away from him. So I couldnt "help" him, its something he had to do HIMSELF.

I do something similar but it's a bit different from what you describe. I can feel something intensely for about a minute and then it goes away, to a point of not even knowing what it was like. I've thought about making a topic on this as well. I don't do this on purpose at all either. I try to remember the emotion but don't. I would describe it as emotional memory loss. At the same time I realize that it causes me signifant problems even though I don't understand why. I don't think much can be done about it either. Most the time I'm laughing and having fun and then I snap then return to normal. I do this when I'm by myself too. I wish I could work on it but I don't know how. I have honestly been concerned I could kill someone and go to prison but anytime I have brought it up I'm not taken seriously because I seem happy and friendly all the time. I have been to therapists and find it useless because whenever I go I usually just laugh and joke with them. I don't act crazy in there and its hard to talk about emotions when you don't understand or remember them. I think only people who live with me see my insane side and to everyone else I just seem eccentric and absent minded. On rare occasions I have flipped out in public such as the store, dshs or work, but I don't act that way when I'm happy.

It's difficult to know if the options you've given yourself are healthy (sorry, "normal" is not a word I find helpful for anybody) because of how vague the context or background info is. I'm not suggesting you divulge more than you're comfortable with, either, just that its difficult to imagine those limiting and mail adaptive options as your only available options without knowing the context. Meanwhile, I'm sure tere are other options and I have a sense they might involve you making some kind of sacrifice you may not want to meals, but I could be wrong, obviously.

As long as you don't explode on the wrong person it will end it tears.

What about talking to someone on here? I'm open. My feelings of inadequacy run rather deep so I'm sure I can help you somehow. Anyways I'm here.

It's normal but maybe you should get a friend to help you with it..