Is it normal that i feel anger when i should feel sadness?
In situations where I formerly would've felt sadness, I now just become irate. I become uncontrollably pissed off if it's something completely out of my control and I have no one to blame for it, such as a family member coming down with a serious disease.
I don't even know where along the line this happened. I don't really get sad and cry anymore when these things happen. I just get insanely pissed and want to destroy everything in my path. The only time I do cry is when I've bottled everything up and I've finally hit my limit. Otherwise, it is anger in place of what should be sadness.
All I can think of is that at one point, I viewed crying and sadness as weakness, and anger as strength, and reconditioned myself to react this way. Now it is an automatic response.