Is it normal that i enjoy pain
Pain is my drug. Without pain I feel numb. Without pain I suffer from withdrawals. Hurting myself gives me a mental and emotional high. I enjoy that pain can bring me one step closer to death and realizing my vulnerability and mortality, but paradoxically can provide me with the only motivation for living. I live so that I can experience more pain and suffering. To suffer is to bring oneself closer to God and the eternal truth. True pain is the purest form of ecstasy and exhilaration that one can feel.