Is it normal that i dont know what to do in a situation like the following?
We feel like revealing stuff about us so embarassing you cant say to anyone you know. So there it goes; i've always been the cold and distant type. Never showing my true nature and always faking a laugh even on my worst days. Cant get intimate with someone. There is a constant battle between my urges as a male and wanting to be alone. Wasnt happy but i was ok with myself. Then things got pretty bad lately. There is this girl i fell madly and hopelessly in love. She is way out of my league. But we talk a lot even about our deepest secrets and mistakes. It hurts so much i cant bear it, being so close and yet so distant. Rreally dont know what to do. I never thought this could happen to me. i had crushes before, i just let them pass and after some time i was again being the cold and emotionless me. This is different, its too much for me and dont know what to do.
Forgive me for the long post but i needed to let it out.