Is it normal that i don't know what to do or think anymore...

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Been deal with assholes for too long, maybe because I'm stuck with electrical engineers at uni. But there are way too many people who dislike me and I've done nothing to them. Even some lecturers hate me.
And I got a rude email from the manger of the engineering sector when I wrote a complaint.

I really hate humans now, like I'd probably to help them anymore in 3rd world countries. Because I fear they'll just turn out like monsters in my shitty spoilt country.

No one cares when someone is treating me wrong they just ignore me and continue laughing with there stupid jokes.

And I act really nice to everyone. But now I don't feel like being the nice one anymore. I feel like snapping back 10 fold so they feel like killing them selves. It would actually make me feel better. But I want to die at the same time too, living is too much. Even my own family is hell, they physically fight each other in public!

Why did evolution have to make us intelligent, we've become selfish monsters.

I've cried twice this year already and people don't care they just walk away, and leave me alone.

It's so hard to find good people...
No one's gonna give a shit about this post just like everyone in my life.

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RoseIsabella

7 years ago

Can you tell us how or why they pick in you?

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  7 years ago
  
  I don't know why, I feel like they just do it because they can, I dont retaliate back.
  
  One example is people saying mean stuff towards me for no reason. Or ignoring me if I greet them, but the next they they might greet me if I'm with others in a group.
  
  Even a guy in my class who flirts with me pushed me one day. Just because I blocked him from entering the class because he was mucking around with me first. But I was only holding my hand out infront of him in a joking matter, there was still enough room for him to walk past me. I almost hit the floor infront of everyone, when he pushed me with so much force.
  
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  - RoseIsabella
    
    7 years ago
    
    Hmm... I dinno, maybe you're socially awkward somehow. I don't think you should be blocking anyone's way, but then again that guy is probably a jerk anyway.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      7 years ago
      
      Yeah maybe...
      
      But I did it as a joke, since he was teasing me first. It's was suppose to be a muck around like friends do.
      
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      - RoseIsabella
        
        7 years ago
        
        How well do you know this dude?
        
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        Anonymous Post Author
        
        7 years ago
        
        About 7 months when that happened. And almost a year now.
        
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finn

7 years ago

You and Sylvia Plath. Quite a duo.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  7 years ago
  
  Thanks, that actually made me feel a little better. She has beautiful poetry.
  
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SirChazwick

7 years ago

You sound like a whiny monster yourself. Not everyone is an asshole. Maybe people treat you bad because you are the one who is indeed being an asshole and you just do not realize it. You are a pleb.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  7 years ago
  
  See your a good example of what's wrong with this world. I've done nothing to you and you've shown hate towards me.
  I know everyone isn't a monster, if you actually payed attention to the bottom of my post I state that clearly.
  "It's so hard to find good people."
  
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- Bad101
  
  7 years ago
  
  Wow you sound just like some of the bullies my sister has to deal with. The type that blames the bullied victim.
  This person's family gets into physical fights and they also show signs of depression. And they're not calling everyone a monster.
  
  You sound like the asshole you're describing.
  
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Ghost-of-dreamsao

7 years ago

Just say fuck em. If you live your life caring so much what everyone thinks about you, you'll never be happy. You have to get thicker skinned than that.

-inb4 whiney excuse plus insisting you have thick skin and I'm wrong

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  7 years ago
  
  What? Why would I say your wrong? Life has no right or wrong answers. And no I don't have thick skin...
  
  Really "whiney excuses"...okay I can't be bothered with this reply anymore. Didn't expect that did you?
  
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  - Ghost-of-dreamsao
    
    7 years ago
    
    Well. You have more fight in you than I thought. At least online anyway. Be that tough offline and you'll be fine. Sorry I offended you but the post was whiney so I assumed that you were. FYI I'm gay, female and black so I've faced more prejudices than you ever will. I would love to trade places with you.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      7 years ago
      
      Apologies accepted.
      My weakness is English so my writing can come out poor, plus my anxiety fucks it up randomly too.
      
      And I do appreciate your advice. I just gotta try and toughen up and hope the most of the bad in my life will leave me be.
      
      Just gotta find a way to get away from my family too. Probably gotta wait a few more years till I get work after I graduate.
      
      I'll only treat the nice nicely and the rest can fuck off.
      
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      - Ghost-of-dreamsao
        
        7 years ago
        
        Focus on reaching your goals instead of focusing on making everyone like you. That's the first step. Everyone in the world will never all like you at once. That's impossible for anyone. So just say fuck that and push it aside.
        
        Finishing school, working and living the life you want to live is actually possible, so that should be your priority. Don't let people mind fuck you into thinking they're more important than they actually are.
        
        That mentality landed me in jail before and made me lose my job as a nurse assistant. Being overly concerned with what people think is the most self destructive mentality anyone can have.
        
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        Anonymous Post Author
        
        7 years ago
        
        Yeah I almost forgot what's most important to me.
        
        My own future, I guess I just gotta stand my ground if someone comes at me wrong. I dont have to be friends with everyone.
        
        Just wish I wasnt surrounded by so many toxic people. It's stressing me out. Hopefully next year when I choose my new subjects I see some new faces.
        
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