Is it normal that i don't know how to make friends
I don't really understand how to make friends anymore. When I was younger I had tons of friends but I suppose that's only because I wasn't so anxious about what other people think of me. I wouldn't even really consider them as friends just people I'd hang out with. I only had one and two friends that I'd consider my real friends but we fell out of touch.
I had to move a lot so each time I moved I made different friends but this time it just feels really difficult to even try.
I'm halfway through my freshman year of high school and I still have no friends. I feel so out of touch because I feel like I share none of the same interests other kids have in class. Like they're too loud and obnoxious and trying way hard to be cool and funny that I can't relate.
I'm trying to keep an open mind about how not everyone is the same but it's hard when the majority of people I face are just so...out there.
And Everytime I have a conversation with someone they just seem so uninterested in what I have to say. Like they listen but just move on so I feel like they don't even want me around so I never bother asking if I could hang out with them or ask if I could be friends with them because it feels kinda weird and pathetic.
I know I'm only young and I have more years to come but I'm moving away again this or next year and I'm afraid I'll still be in the same place I've always been as that weird silent awkward girl that sits in corner of the classroom.
I don't want to be alone.