Is it normal that i don't feel much after having a baby even with a big penis?

What's going on between your legs is obviously an important factor in determining whether you enjoy sex, but what's going on between your ears is just as important if not more so.

The physical trauma of a baby passing through the vagina can do a real number on women and drastically change how they experience penis-in-vagina sex. However, since you had a Caesarean birth, it's highly unlikely that anything has physically changed "down there".

What has changed is that you've been through the hormonal upheaval of pregnancy and giving birth, and this will have affected your brain as much as the rest of your body. I obviously have no idea how becoming a mother has affected you psychologically, but I am sure that you'd be a very unusual woman if it hasn't affected you at all. It would also be surprising if having a baby hasn't had any effect on how you think of sex.

Seeing a gynaecologist as olderdude suggests isn't a bad idea, but it seems to me that you might also find it useful to talk to a counsellor who has experience of helping women with sexual issues and trying to figure out what exactly is going on in your head in regard to sex.

You thinking that all you needed to enjoy sex was to find a guy with a big tool is entirely understandable, but it's misguided. Researchers have found that only about a fifth of women are able to reach orgasm by penis-in-vagina thrusting alone. For the vast majority of women, that just doesn't provide enough stimulation to the clitoris. Also, it sounds like you believe that the only real sex involves having a penis in your vagina; that's a very limiting view. As a guy, I certainly believe that good sex will involve that at some point, but good sex also includes a lot of other stuff that's nearly as enjoyable for me, and possibly even more pleasurable for the woman I'm with.

You did him a favor. You’d never have been able to stop fucking better and bigger men. Whenever you had the chance you’d have been face down ass up getting fucked by them. Find one who eventually dominates and satisfies you.

You dumped the father of your kid because he had a small dick? You got problems. Why didn't you just get a big black dildo or let him fuck your ass?

Female hypergamy at its finest. Take notes, gents.

It's not rare that after giving birth we experience some kind of frigidity. Some women take 1 yr and some even more before the libido is back.

Boojum said it, problem maybe between the ears not the legs.

I've seen it before and it normally occurs after the first child (only child).
It happens subconsciously, sex equates to pregnancy and pregnancy was not/is not wanted or desired, so sex is not wanted or desired. Although on the outside you may be thinking I want this and I want to make it enjoyable, it's kind of like a guy with ED, thinking about it can subconsciously make things worse.

Not sure if you got pregnant easily or not but that could add to the process and problem. 100 years ago women were taught sex was for child birth if you enjoy sex then you're a slut and you might as well go be a hooker because good girls only do it or use it seldomly as needed.
Depending on your upbringing some of that programing could be hidden deep inside.

If this is the case, then you'll need to find a way to convince your subconscious mind it's okay and not Everytime is going to mean pregnancy. Most likely a counselor is going to be needed.

Dont they stitch your vagina up when you have a baby? Its not gonna matter

I'd say your priorities where mixed up.

Marriage is about a lot more than having sex. Not saying sex is not important. My wife and I often discuss these other benefits of marriage (and neither of us got married with the other just to have sex).

But, if the two of you cannot develop a satisfying romantic and sex life (and had an unmet need that he really could not fill) - and you truly care for each other.... You likely could have gotten permission up front to have a partner on the side (this is not as uncommon as you may think). There would likely be rules on how that would work.

Yours is the 2nd story I have heard in the last 8 hours where some lady divorced her loving husband to find better sex with someone else. The other story has my wife upset as she knows the lady and talked with her today.

I wish you well with figuring out a better future. There is another out there that can love you.

You likely need to talk to a gynecologist. Some Ladies don't have "good feeling contact" when they have sex. There are certain things that can improve that, although every lady is unique on what she needs.

I wish you the best,

It’s definitely not normal that you choice to have a surgery over life birth to save your vagina…. That’s weird.

I’ve never had a good lover from the internet. Ever.

Maybe you have a desensitized vagina. 🤷🏾‍♀️