Iin, that i consider people who commit suicide to be badasses?
It's a common trope to call people who commit suicide to be "cowards".
But think about it. Nobody living knows what it's like to be dead. NOBODY really knows what happens next. Maybe the Christians and Muslims are right, and suicides are tortured forever. Maybe it HURTS to be dead (as is touched on in the 1984 movie "Return of the Living Dead".) Maybe you can feel the corrosive formaldehyde embalming fluid burning into your arteries (like in 1972's "Tales from The Crypt") or you can feel yourself being cremated... or you become an eternally emotionally tormented ghost... who knows?
Pain is a reaction to injury. So does it not make sense, that dying is the ULTIMATE painful experience, as it is the ultimate injury?
I'd say suicidal people are courageous, bad-ass warriors. After all, they're willingly plunging into the unknown (and is that not what every legendary hero has done, from Gilgamesh to Luke Skywalker?)
My cousin shot himself 8 years ago this month, and I still feel that he was anything but a coward, or "weak", or what have you. (For what it's worth, he was known as the toughest kid in his high school, and in his whole life he never backed down from a fight!)
Show me a suicide, and I'll show you a badass. Barring religious platitudery, how am I wrong on this?