Is it normal that i certain sounds or sights or touches make me wanna go nuts?

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This has been happening for a few years, and NO one knows what's wrong with me. Some people (coughfamilycough) think I'm making things up and its no big deal.
Its just like the title says. Certain things cause these violent reactions from me. It has gotten really really bad over this last year. My reactions: I dig my nails into my skin or drag them on my face (I guess so I can have the pain distract me...GOD THAT SOUNDS SO DRAMATIC, lol.) I bite my lip to stop the sudden groans, moans, and screams that are about to come out. My toes curl, I convulse a little, cry a lot of the times too. And then I get the fuck out of there.
I don't know why these things cause such pain in me. Lately, I've been having terrible thoughts of hurting the loved ones that cause these certain 'things.' (Only when they cause them.)
I would die than ever act on these thoughts, that's for sure.
Okay...well the 'things' I'm talking about are...damn, there's like a list, soooo:
Clocks ticking in the background.
When most people speak Arabic (mainly women...the softness of their voice, I guess.)
When my sister breathed or snored. ): We used to share a room, and slept with my hands covering my ears in uncomfortable positions.
When my dad, brother, and mother eat something. It is TERRIBLE when my brother eats. First of all, he east like a sloppy cow. But, it gets the worst reaction: I burst into tears, and lock myself in a small room where its quiet, and I can calm down.
(He thinks I make everything up, and everything he says, goes in my house...)
When my sisters clicks at her nails. Or just sometimes, when people clip their nails.
My sister swallowing something.
I hate seeing my sister play with a strand of her hair for some reason. I just feel like, "ahh!" like I've seen something like a pile of dead bodies.
I hold a large pillow in front of me when we watch TV so I don't have to see anything from her. ): Sad, and it doesn't make sense...
Murmurs of the TV through the wall, etc..

I don't get the same violent reaction with all of these things. And I also have this OCD-like thing were I HAVE to close my ears after I hear anything like that. And now I'm starting to get affected with touch too.

I'm a hijabi, and sometimes...just the way my hibaj sits on my neck can really irritate me. Like, its just THERE, I can't do anything. And when I sleep, there has to be pressure on my neck or I'll go nuts.

Here is a forum of some people who seem to have the same thing as me but I can't seem to contact them: http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/newbie-noise-anxiety-and-other-things-help-4163/page-3/

They seem to mention a lot of what I couldn't type down here. Some of their trigger-things are not the same, but I feel the same way.

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  • valtema
    13 years ago

    I do the same thing, except to a lesser degree. I imagine hurting my brother, too, because of the things he does!!! For me the triggers are much more specific. A lot of times it's only when certain people do it. I can try to think of a few.
    1. Men peeing (It makes me want to cry a little just writing that)
    2. People snoring or breathing loud, like you said!
    3. The sound of my mom's voice, sometimes.
    4. When (certain) people say "I've got" or "you've got" instead of just "I have." (I hate just writing that!!!)
    5. people picking at things can bother me. at their nails or cuticles, or an old friend of mine always picked at her thumbs and at the threads of her clothes and her eyelashes! My best friend now will chew on her thumbs!!!
    6. Holes!!! Not big, alone ones, but lots of them together. Depends on the situation, though, like I said it's really specific.
    7. When people write on the desks at school. Something indirect bothers me about it, though. Just having the pencil on there or something.
    8. When people crush things up into a little ball! Like tiny, balled up pieces of paper! saksdkjhfgdhsafds I always have to uncrumple them or throw them away immediately. In general when things and crushed up or smashed down or something, I don't know.

    I feel so bad saying this, but I'll be honest there's several things about my best friend SPECIFICALLY that I just can't deal with!!
    1. the way she moves her long fingers when she's gesturing as she's talking
    2. When she makes that "tsk tsk tsk" noise. AHH can't STAND it!!!
    3. The way she says "like." She says the "k" for a really long time or something. "Likkkkkke..." or something, I don't know, I can't stand it.

    My reaction to these things isn't that violent, but I sort of have to plug my ears or close my eyes or make the thing stop. I am so glad it's not just me!!!!

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    • Odd
      13 years ago

      Oh gosh, I'm soooo glad I've found you! lol It's actually with certain people too for me, but now...its like spreading. That sounds weird but I mean its becoming everyone... here's my email: [email protected]. Email me!!

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