Is it normal that i can't forget this nightmare?
I suddenly found myself in a dark enclosed space. I instinctively knew I needed to leave, that something was terribly wrong. I came face-face with what I can only describe as a large black machine. It had an artifical evilness that deeply disturbed me and caused me to panic. The machine said nothing and did nothing, but the energy that was radiating from it was enough to paralyze me with fear. I remember it was the color black and it seemed to be undergound, perhaps even secured to the ground on which it lay. The thing that brought me to this place was a red balloon. I woke up suddenly to see my ceiling spinning above my bed and sat up immediately. My entire bedroom felt unreal to me for a moment. It felt as if I had been yanked back on to a certain frequency and everything was still in the process of adjusting to my concious mind. While spinning was begining to disapate, my fear was still very much prevalent. I felt paralyzed with a feeling of hopelessness and despair and immediately began screaming. My father came into my room which instantly gave me a feeling of familiarity that I desperately needed. I eventually calmed down, fell asleep and moved on with my life, but this nightmare has NEVER left me. I don't think I'll ever be able to forget those terrifying emotional feelings it gave me.
I've since heard of people taking Ayahuasca and having similar visions of some sort artificial machine set out to destroy all biological/spiritual life. Could this be in any way related? I was a small child at the time, maybe 4 or 5 years old. Could this have been some sort of an out of body experience which enabled me to slip into another dimension?