Is it normal that drugs seem to be my only relief?
Some days I feel like a total sociopath. No empathy, little emotion, disconnection from everything and everybody. I used to have derealization symptoms where I would feel like everything is a big wonderfully dark orchestrated dream. I lost my job due to my.. Illness I guess you could say, but it's more like an endless idle anger that looks for a direction to be pointed in. So I'm sober. No pot, little alcohol. No synthetic shit because it cracks me up. Receptors in my brain don't take well to any opioid antagonists. I pretty much just use DXM cough syrup to get away from life these days. Is it normal for an empty person like myself to look to substance so desperately? Not here for judgement (even though there will be the stray person).