Is it normal that attention, compliments, and gifts make me uncomfortable?
i hate to be given gifts. i don't know how to accept them, i don't know how to properly convey my gratitude for them, and I immediately feel indebted to the person giving them to me. i prefer no one buy me gifts or make them for me, and likewise, I usually don't give gifts to other people. when people give me especially nice gifts, it will make me feel so uneasy that I even cry sometimes afterward.
in the same way I don't like getting compliments. i have no idea how to respond to them. being complimented makes me uncomfortable, and I get suspicious they're lying or have some kind of ulterior motive when people compliment or say nice things to me. i say kind things to others all the time, but I dislike it when people say kind things to/about me.
finally, I hate people paying attention to me. i don't like it when people look at me or try to start personal conversations with me. i prefer to blend in and when people spot me out of a crowd I feel regretful and terrified.