Is it normal still grieving death of boyfriend 4 months later?

My mom died 6 months ago. I have good days and bad days. The bad days seem to get further apart but sometimes I feel like I'd like to talk to her and the realization that I will never be able to speak to her again just seems unbearable. Everyone processes things differently but it's never easy for anyone. Someday thoughts of your boyfriend will bring a smile to your face instead of a tear to your eye.

As slowlymovingfast says, there's no schedule for the grieving process, and you can't expect what you experience to neatly follow the Kübler-Ross five stages model.

Things will get better if you allow them to, but it's possible your experience has fundamentally changed your outlook on life in ways you'll only really understand years from now. I cared for my late wife through her terminal illness until her death more than twelve years ago, and I know that experience changed me.

These days, most people in Western countries are insulated from death. People who haven't experienced something similar to what you did really can't relate to it, and they really don't want to think about it too much. So don't be surprised if you soon start to get messages - direct and subtle - from your friends that you should be moving on.

It seems to me the best you can do is acknowledge that there's a hole in your life, accept that it will always be there, and try to build a new life around that hole. What happened to your boyfriend is truly shitty and what you've been through is total crap, but you have a life to live, and you have the right to search for happiness.

Give it time. Four months on, you're still processing a very traumatic event. Don't feel bad about that, but try to focus on the positive things in your life.

There is no timeline on Grief.

Anyone who tells you otherwise does not have your best interests at heart. Grieve in your own way and in your own time.

Grief is an uncontrollable Beast who will seek you out in your quietest moments, it will fuck with your mind on your brightest days.

If you have people in your life who listen to you when you break down and support you when you're not, cherish them.

They are your people.

That's hardly any time if you loved him OP. Of course it's normal to still be grieving.

I’m so sorry for your loss and tragedy. I lost my boyfriend when I was 15 (very long time ago) there was a cryptic note and no
Answers.
What I do know is that I can promise it WILL get better.
Sending love and light

My grandmother died in 2015, and i still break down crying. It's completely normal.

Theres no time table for grief, you feel what you feel until you feel okay again.

Oh my gosh, of course it is normal! First off, I’m sorry for your loss. No one deserves the pain of having a love one die in their arms. Your grief is normal, and if anyone is telling you that it’s not, you need to cut them out of your life. There is no time limit on grief; especially if you have true romantic feelings for them or had a close relationship. I really hope you find someone to fill this gap; and once again, I’m truly sorry for your loss.

It's really sad when someone tells you that a person you love has died. But to actually be the one who witnesses it? That must be so much more impactful.

You take as long as you need to grieve. You're a stronger person if you cry.

If I were you I'd seek closure and get counselling to help you deal with your demons. In the long run you will feel better. Just remember not to put a time limit on how long you grieve for.