Iin; poop or chocolate, mocha or dirt?

I'm a black girl age 18. Let me start by saying that my skin is the color of a milk chocolate bar or coffee with only a bit of half & half. What gets to me some days is that I know that people who are racist be they white, black or any other race, think of my skin as poop or dirt (which may be somewhat good since dirt, *soil as I've learned grows food). My poop is normally green tinted and smells as poop should. I'm not green tinted! I smell like coconut oil! And other races are more likely to have green eyes anyway. I could attack white people or even Melanesians and say that honey blonde hair looks like piss, but wouldn't you rather think of honey? I sure would. Honey, silken gold or sunshine. Is my train of thought normal? Does anyone else ever think about their features like this whether in a positive light or a negative one?