Is it normal not to know what to do with my life?
I am unhappy with my life. It isn't bad but I want more for myself. I went to college and I work a job that I love in a place I grew up (and the job actually relates to what I went to school for) but to be honest it doesn't pay enough for me to really build a life for myself. And that makes me unhappy. I want to do things like be able to drive a decent car instead of one that I've driven since I was 18 years old and afford to live in an apartment (or better yet, buy a home!) that is in a safe neighborhood with no roommate.
I could start applying for jobs in bigger cities, closer or farther away. I have good experience now on top of that education, and I probably would except...
I have this boyfriend. He treats me as I would like to be treated, loves me even when I'm not being so nice, and he's successful and makes really good money. We have been dating for almost two years and I was hoping that maybe he could be my roommate, that would make me really happy, but he is old-fashioned and won't live with a woman who he isn't married to. I don't think that he has any intention of marrying me anytime soon so I am in this situation now where I will probably lose my roommate in the next couple of months and end up in the humiliating situation of a 31 year old woman living with her parents... at least for a little while. I really am 100% against accepting any monetary support from the boyfriend. I want to feel like I can take care of myself and keep my pride. I think it is foolish to be an adult and have to rely on other people to support a standard of living that you cannot perpetuate on your own. What happens if we split up then? I'll be really out of luck!
I really, really love my boyfriend but obviously his foot dragging is making me wonder if I should just break my own heart and dump him before I give him the opportunity to do it himself. Aside from that, I do sort of feel like I am resistant to moving in large part because of our relationship. Other than that I really do love my job so that's a player too, and there isn't any guarantee I'd be happy anywhere else... so, what do you think I should do? Or at least give more thought to?
Thanks.
Find a new job with higher pay in a far away place (start over) | 6 | |
Find a job closer to home with higher pay (within a day's drive) | 6 | |
Stay where you are- living with parents will be good for you | 3 | |
Demand to know what my bf is thinking and then make a decision | 8 |