Is it normal normal to love the excitement of a family member's death?

My aunt died last night. I wasn't close with her at all so I'm not heartbroken or anything. I didn't want her to die but part of me kept thinking how exciting it would be if she did die (she was in the hospital and no one expected her to actually die but her condition wasn't good either). I hate seeing so many people upset and crying but I also enjoy seeing how everyone reacts. I always think about a person and wonder how different people would react if that person dies. I also enjoy the shock and that feeling when it hits you that it really did happen and someone you used to be around and talk to is now gone. My life isn't very exciting but it's not like I was so bored I resorted to this for excitement. I've just always kind of liked when something tragic happens or something that feels like would never actually happen. I even feel the same about my brother (though if something horrible happened to him I know I wouldn't really be excited at all).