Is it normal no one is a good fit for my weird self

I know you said that it's hard for you to communicate your emotions, and I'm rather curious as to whether, or not you've ever worked with a therapist on that. I'm sorry if I've asked this in the past, and have just not been able to recall your answer. I think it's probably very hard for people to be with other people who don't communicate their feelings well. I guess what I'm trying to say is I feel in my less than humble opinion that if someone has trouble expressing his, or her emotions that the person ought to be working on that with a qualified therapist. I suppose I'm wondering whether, or not you just tell people that you have a hard time expressing your emotions, and then just expect other people, primarily perspective partners, to just accept that you have trouble expressing your emotions, and then just be cool with it?

I probably couldn't, and honestly wouldn't wanna date a guy who was not able to express his emotions/feelings very well. I do want to add, however, that a lot of people express their affection for others through the way they treat their loved ones. There's more than one way to express feelings, and emotions.

I honestly recall only one time off the top of my head where I asked a guy what he liked about me. First off I wasn't interested in anything other than platonic friendship, but I had invited this dude to come over, and hang out. This was a time before I had my trusty Siamese cat, and at the time I was absolutely obsessed with getting a Himalayan kitten. I had a copy of this magazine that comes out once a year called KITTENS, it's sold at Petsmart, and has articles about all the different breeds of cats, their temperaments and of course lots of awesome pictures of kittens. Well, I don't think I need to tell you that I can, do, and did talk about nothing, but kittens. This guy starts trying to put the moves on me, and I keep pushing him off. So I showed him the pictures of different breeds of kittens that the magazine had a lengthy article about spotlighting the different breeds, and their characteristics. I asked this guy if he could guess what breed of cat I wanted to get, then he looks at me obviously without a thought in his head, and says, "I dunno". So then I was getting really annoyed with him, and I asked him why he liked me, and he said, "I like you, because you're pretty, and nice". I swear to God I felt like I was gonna explode, because let's face it a chair is pretty, and nice, but I a person, not a thing, and I'm much more complicated than a chair. I just remember thinking this little bastard hasn't paid attention to a damn word I've said all night long, he doesn't really like me, or want to get to know me as person; he just wants to have sex with me. Another point I want to mention was that went I invited him to come over I invited him to just hang out, and smoke a few bowls of marijuana with me. Well, when he came over I'd offer to share a bow, and pass the pipe to him, and he continuously would just say no. Iwas starting to feel like the bad kid who tries to peer pressure other kids to smoke, and drink on those old after school specials they used to show on television back in the day. So finally he sort of confesses to me by showing sobriety coin he had from Narcotics Anonymous. Now don't get me wrong I fully support people with substance abuse problems choosing to sober, pursue continued sobriety. But the thing here is that this guy knowingly, and deliberately lied to me by omission by not telling me that he was an addict! I invited this moron to my house, and offered him my hospitality, but I was crystal clear about the fact that I smoked weed, and would be offering him some. This guy lied to me from the get go by accepting my very casual, and platonic invitation, and then wouldn't stop trying to make passes, and put the moves on me all while completely not paying attention to a word I said about what was the most important thing to me, my deep, and impassioned desire to welcome a new kitten in my life! He was only there, because he was attracted to me, and wanted to have sex with me, he didn't give a shit about me as person, or anything I was interested in, or cared about. My fondest memory from that awful experience was when he was on top of me, and I asked him to stop, then he said, "no you stop", and that's when I put my hands on him. I yelled in my loudest, deepest voice, "get off of me", pushed him good, and hard, then he practically flew off of me when I pushed him. The look of shock, and fear in his eyes was priceless, and the memory of that is dear to me, because I like being able to throw a full grown man off of me, and I sincerely wish all women had the physical strength to literally throw guys who can't take no for answer across a room! I'm older now, so I'm not quite as strong, and powerful so I have a few weapons. To this day I really resent the way that guy lied right to my face, didn't listen to a word I said, and was only interested in me for selfishness ass thing, it's vile, and disgusting when guys act like that, it truly is.

Sorry for my rant, and kinda going off on a tangent like that. The thing is if I asked the question about what kinda kitten do you think I want to average kid with Downs Syndrome know the kid would have been able to answer my question correctly in a heartbeat!