Is it normal my vindictive mother destroyed me emotionally

I hate no one more then my parents. However most of all my mother. Who aimed to destroy everything I cared about, use me and discard me when bored, and destroy every last shred of humanity I had left. The last thing that killed me was the loss of something I loved. This was the only thing I ever loved in my entire life. Which she then mocked me for. I think she did this as a punishment for not being her slave anymore and it was the only way I could still be made to suffer. Now I am incapable of loving anything anymore.