Iin: my poop is abnormally large. the biggest possible, h/w.

**100% Genuine post. Not one word you are about to read is fabricated or implausible, however, it is disgusting, crass and graphic; refrain from reading if you're disgusted easily**

Ok, so I've been on medication (for a torn muscle) for a few years. It's extensive and routine, since ultimately surgery will take place. The daily mg and doses are necessary, in 'full recovery', so I cannot abruptly stop. Regardless of this, now dangerous, issue.

Basically I am passing the biggest and hardest stools, you could ever imagine. I'm tall (very petite) I model for a yoga and athletic wear, some runway, but now I refuse to even model, because I can't afford to lose 'water weight' before gigs anymore, these bowel movements are nearly killing me! I'm small, to say the least, so when I notice a BM is the size of a remote control, I'm petrified and impressed the body is capable of passing that large of a BM.

As far as passing, these are exhausting, it can take an hour, total. From the start, to finally passing; I will feel it nearly "breaking" my bone in the initial attempt to start passing it, there's always this, "Fuck it, nvm, go back! Undo! Undo!" moment, where I try to give up and hope it stops and slithers back "up", but no... It's a large, remote control sized mass, hard and absolutely SOLID (I've tried penetrating the mass with a chopstick, and VERY compact clay describes it best) it is beyond large, I cannot even flush it, it is too big for the toilet and will not break up, it's far too dense and hard. If I stop attempts, it can get stuck in the midway point (imagine a large remote, being stuck halfway inside you) it is ripping/tearing, hell... pushing is next to birth, which I haven't experienced, but I know it's nearly worse; tears / bleeds, the body doing everything it can for you, to not pass out or burst every vessel, it ruins you! Incessant cold sweats, my body goes in panic mode, which leaves no relief to pass it, because ultimately, it's a painful rip. Not to mention, another will happen.

The problem, among too many regarding this, is that I never know when it will be a "bad one", some are the usual small deer pellets. How I always have gone, not really healthy in itself... but it's the compact (very long built up) monsters, that are now far more dangerous. Some break offs happen, before the killer. Now the size is easily a "Comcast Remote", the width, EASILY a beer can, it's very heavy and dense, it is NOT flushable; It's something I can't even find comparison that comes close, online, of all places. Yes. I have looked. No cares given, if weird, I just need to know someone "gets it".. And you know, curiosity.

So my roommate came in the bathroom, after I screamed one out, last month, and didn't think that it was even possible and started to cry. That was the WORST and biggest, so far. The picture I have shown my Doctor, also not believed. As if I'm playing a YouTube prank on her, or something. I understand, it's the biggest I've thought possible, too.

How can this be? Should I be hospitalized and or, have an enema performed? Not that temporary fixes will suffice.