Is it normal my gut feeling trusts nobody?
I often ignore my gut feelings on situations because its not fun to live in constant suspicion of everyone, so I choose to accept everyone in life has malicious intentions. When I really think about how I feel, I trust no one. I think people in general are truly evil beings who would all fuck me over given the chance. I have lots of friends but I always keep my guard up around everyone and don't open up anything to anyone that could potentially leave me in a vulnerable situation. In fact I see vulnerabilities as weakness because if people can only be used if they allow others the opportunity to use them. I've brought this up to therapists in the past and they suggested I am paranoid, which angers me because I know they are saying that to manipulate me. It does sometimes sadden me to live in such a hostile world though because I do desire close relationships, but I know it would be stupid to put myself in a situation of weakness.
I am unsure if everyone else feels this way.