Is it normal my friends treat me differently
I'm not a very social person, so I've been trying to figure out my friends just don't seem to like me that much.
I don't think I've ever acted superior to them, ever. I always talk about how "I suck at this" or "I'm totally going to fail this test." When they say that I just tell them that they are way smarter and more dedicated so they shouldn't be bothered (it's not like I was lying anyways.)
They used to invite me to things once in a blue moon, and it's only gotten rarer and rarer. Worst of all, they make plans with each other in class and never think to include me (but they've asked other people, just not me.) They seem to ALWAYS be making plans, and I feel like if they aren't even going to look in my direction, they clearly don't want me there.
I try to get into a conversation, but many times it goes to topics that I'm just not into (school drama, chick flicks, etc.) I end up just sitting there waiting for something that I can comment on instead of nodding like an idiot or doing nothing at all.
It makes me a little mad because my other friends are allowed to stare at their phones and ignore the conversation, but there is always a problem with me regardless if I talk or not. I can just FEEL that they don't like me.
I really feel so useless in their circle. I don't feel welcome, I never have anything to say, they never invite me anywhere, and I don't feel comfortable being around them anymore.
I just want to know what I'm doing wrong. I'm worried that this will always be the case, and people are never going to accept me.