Is it normal it's hard to eat?
It started out as a way to be healthy and give my digestive system a break. But I went overboard and now most of the time I see food as my enemy. Even when I don't it's hard to eat, and I feel guilty even if all I eat one day is an orange and a cup of peas. I'm not too worried though because mentally, I haven't slipped dangerously far into a disorder mindset. I'll ease into sustainable food portions (hopefully), and it'll be healthy food. I love the control but I don't want to die. Yesterday I bought some vitamins after I almost hit my head in the shower.