Is it normal in a relationship to periodically take drugs for intense anal play

FOR GIRLS OPINIONS ONLY PLEASE
im normal,respectful, classy,,im intelligent, just have alittle deep dark secret im so lost about..
Im starting to loose hope that im gonna find a woman as sexually open as me...iv experienced it once and instantly set the bar for what i need from a woman in my life....to pleasure and watch a partner of mine roll there eyes in complete serenity makes me feel more alive and connected with that person than any other experience to be shared by another human being(in my personal opinion,). Im very much not shy or skiddish when it comes to a woman's body in the aspect that anything and everything that comes with the anal territory i absolutely don't mind cleaning up after(the smell is very stimulating for me as well as pee)...im very much an ass lover and just want a girl who is completely fine with having her butt and vagina completely TL&C'ED for everyday if shes willing and doesnt mind taking "substances" periodically in the name of having amazing, long lasting, bring a tear to your eye kinda sex, as well to relax the anal muscles enough to really go hard and deep ,and shares the same sensual connection i have for a partner comfortable going to the bathroom around me..even if shes pooping...the fact that she can relive herself with me makes me feel so much trust bestowed in me that its very much a sensual bonding connection for me and that woman at that point..not into playing with it but just to feel that level of comfort with a woman makes me feel at peace and with someone of true human nature like myself....any woman agree with this or even share the same opinion?