Is it normal im not keeping him
I borrowed/rented a bunny this year and tomorrow I am going to return him instead of buying him like I had planned. Its felt wrong from the start but ive refused to accept failure and kept renting him, gotten more and more attached and today after making the decision I cried and cried but at the same time I cant stand having him here and its gonna be a relief hes not here. Hes the lovliest ever though but for example I dont want another bunny + cant afford it + no room for it and he needs a companion it is clear that he misses other bunnies. He licks me and im sure he looked sad after I told him hes going back home tomorrow then hes been distancing himself a lot all day and it made me feel so bad I started crying.
I want the best for him though and not gonna lie I want my bedroom back to how it was- hygenic and not messy!.. He also takes so much of my time and im sort of OCD about my things I dont even let the cat here in my bedroom without my supervision and hes only allowed to lay still and sleep when hes here so I guess it was rather...optimistic of me to think a freeroaming bunny in here would be fun. I wanted to prove that I can do it and I failed.
Its still sad and I feel bad even though I dont own him because I know he has grown attached to me I wish he hated me instead. Now its much harder though its the right decision.