Is it normal im a christian and smoke pot?
Long story short I was raised a christian and am now 20. I developed moderate social anxiety like 4 years ago and started using pot last year. I've tried anti-depressants but they don't work. I've tried self-help techniques but I find them useless. I once got drunk and decided to hang myself in my backyard but failed to do so because I was too drunk and kept falling off the chair. This was before trying pot and anti-depressants when I thought to myself that I will always be like this. Pot is the only thing that has makes me feel like a normal person and makes life worth living. My parents still make me go to church because I live under their roof but I don't feel right going to church knowing that I use pot. My parents are strongly against drugs but don't know I smoke pot because I vape when they're asleep. I've prayed to God already before trying pot but I guess I didn't have faith in my prayers. I know my body is Gods temple. Anyways I need opinions as to wether I am right or wrong about using pot whilst going to church.