Is it normal if work sucks the passion out of you?
Idk what it is but I have an enormous passion for a lot of things and whenever I try to work in that field, I start losing interest in it. It's like working drains me and makes me bored of that subject. A small example would be when I started working for one of my favorite stores in HS. I was like this should be good. Never went to shop there again. It was torture, it wasn't what I thought. When I went to study for my major/interest, it's not that I hate it now, but while actually going to school for it, I dreaded it. Aside from not being good at it, idk what it was that made me dislike what I was studying. However, I didn't regret studying that. I am still pursuing my dreams regardless because that is ultimately what I wanna do. Now that I have graduated, I'm interning in two different fields that does have to do with each other on some level. But I'm basically testing the waters and one day I don't like one internship and the next day I don't like the other. They're both great but the idea of "working" for it sucks the passion out of me. I don't wanna work in something I am not interested in but it looks like working for something I am interested in ruins my passion for it and I don't wanna dislike something I have always loved. Kind of like the store I worked for. I have another favorite store and learned a lesson not to work there. It's like I forget I'm working for that company/industry I have always loved. I think the best thing to do now is create your business the way you want it to work. I haven't tried it but I hope that if I do, I won't hate what I'm doing even more. I feel though, that it could also be just the people in general that make me dislike it. I think if I were working virtually for what I love or like I said I was in charge in what I love, I;d be doing a lot better. It's like someone who wants to be a singer but doesn't want to perform, or go on tours, or go to vocal classes. Almost kind of depressing.