Is it normal if im taking this heartbreak harder than the loss of my sibling?

So yeah is it? Is it okay? Do I look like a bad person? I am genuinely taking this heartbreak so much harder than losing my sibling. A few factors to consider: when I lost my sibling, I was young and known for being "heartless" well to be honest like yeah I was sad but it didn't hit home for me. I believe its because we didn't have the greatest relationship but it wasn't horrible either. I feel like they didn't make a huge impact in my life. Sometimes my family looks at me like a bad person for not having any emotion towards it but they dont understand that I truly didn't have a connection with them. Now with my bf breaking up with me, it hurts. This is the most pain I have ever felt. I can't stop crying, the sadness has consumed me where pple can feel the negativity. I don't feel like doing anything while Im heartbroken. With my sibling gone, I was and still am willing to go out and have a good time. Is this odd? and does it mean I'm a bad person?

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  • bleach_baby

    You're not a bad person. No one can tell you how to feel. I've never lost a sibling but if my boyfriend left me I don't know how I'd cope. I'm very close to my brothers and I can't bear the thought of something happening to them but I think when you lose your true love it doesn't just take them away, it also takes away a whole future and life-path that the two of you could have had together - so you're grieving that future as well as the absence of someone you love.

    I'm very sorry for your heartbreak.

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