Is it normal if i wish i can like get inside people?
It's not in a perverted way, more like a psychological way. After falling in love and finally feeling something real and vulnerable, I just look at humans in a different way. I wish I can just get inside someone's head and heart and see if their reactions to things make sense according to how they're truly feeling and thinking. Being a psychologist I feel is not enough. Just over-observing and over-analyzing someone outside of their mind and heart is not sufficient in my perspective. Some people are just plain crazy but who knows maybe they have legit reasons. Its like falling in love many times. I don't think you can feel what I'm feeling right now a few times. It's rare so when I hear "I love them" from one person a couple of times, I'm just like okay now I think you're just easy and don't know what love really feels like. But who knows, maybe they have felt the way I'm feeling a few times. In other words, now I don't just jump to conclusions and judge right off the bat when I see someone act in a particular way. I sympathize with them no matter how crazy they look because who knows what's going on inside. Personally, I used to think every girl who would cater to guys that would hurt them and say "but I love him" were such a disgrace and I just wanted to slap them. But now, I get where they're coming from. Dnt get me wrong, sometimes those guys or girls are real asswholes in relationships and the other person needs to move on asap. But see thats the thing, I wish I can find out the real truth and basically be them for a bit and see the genuine story.