Is it normal if i want to do this with the one i love?

Yo! I got an eye infection due to crying so much from being hurt over and over by my boy(friend). I'm serious. I want my eyes to get back to normal but I got wrinkles under my eyes, puffiness, swelling, and more and its been too many days for them to stay puffy after crying but I mean I have cried a lot so its understandable. Anyways, although he has hurt me so much, its only cause he has my heart, I love him, I'm in love w him and its never going to change. However, yes I have finally stepped up and the next time he hurts me, it's over. But so far, things have been going well...theres some stuff that start running through my head but I try not to react too much until something actually happens in front of me. I mean I feel like most of my most depressing moments are because of thoughts but then something proves them right and I just begin balling more and more. It's crazy how much you can cry. I guess as long as I'm still in love with him, I'm always gonna end up crying.

But at the end of the day, Im just trying to embrace the gift of being in love cause it is a great feeling and as long as I have him, I'm going to enjoy the moments. I can tell you one thing about being in love for sure is that you don't want any one else. Nobody comes in comparison that it scares me; will any guy ever capture my heart like he has? or is he the only one I'm ever going to love? A nice, good looking, kind hearted guy can cross my path but just make me smile, not actually touch me like my bf has. We're long-distance so Ive had plenty of chances of meeting other guys and nada, nothing.

So I plan to literally capture the moments with him on videos with songs that have a special place in heart cause of him; we either connected listening to them, he introduced them to me, or they just remind me of him and my relationship with him. I have all the good and bad moments in my head from last year but this year, I want to actually make memories w him like its the end of the world. We're in a better place than last yr but I guess cause we're more clear where we stand and I'm just ready to make good memories while it lasts because at the end of the day, he makes me feel good regardless of all the low points and my eye infection. I want to look back at my videos like yeah it was an amazing experience and I learned a lot of lessons but thanks for the memories.