Is it normal if i think i'm going to be single for the rest of my life?

The man I'm in love with is a douche. The guys who appreciate me and would love to be with me, I don't have feelings for. I'm not an easy person who just gets in a relationship with someone just because they are nice and we have a good time together. It takes more for me. Plus, I don't "like" easily either. I've only had two bfs. My sec bf came out of no where, when I wanted to be single and live life. But once you fall in love, it's a trap that feels like forever to get out of. So far it has been a journey with the love of my life and at this rate, I have no idea if we're going to be together in the end. He has no idea what he wants and I'm just sitting here knowing what I want, I want him but unfortunately, it's not working out or at least not right now. He needs to figure it out and trust me I have my heart open to anyone who will make me feel the same way he has but so far, no luck. My heart belongs to him as cheesy as that sounds. So because I feel like it won't work out with the love of my life and I don't want anyone else, I'm going to be single forever. Why would I settle for someone less than the person I love? just cause they appreciate me more? No it doesn't feel right to me. I want to feel something for them, too.

I came to the conclusion that someone will always love the other person more in a relationship which is another reason why I think I'm going to be single. I cannot be with someone who I don't love as much as my bf. That guy might love me as much as I love my bf but its not fair to him to be with someone who doesn't feel the same way he does just like its not fair for me to be with my bf when he doesn't feel the same. Its like this triangle. Unless a miracle happens and my bf ends up realizing he loves me and is not going to screw up anymore, then I think I'm gonna be single for the rest of my life.