Is it normal if i see myself different through texts than in person?

Okay so I decided to just go back and look through my texts with my boy from the beginning. I couldn't from right in the beginning because I had changed phones but its early enough. I was afraid I would come across those bad moments I went through with him and have that feeling again and yeah I mean I didn't feel exactly how i felt before but i do remember how he made me feel and what he put me through. At the end of the scroll, I have mixed feelings about how I look to him and how he looks to me. The main problem I have always had with him is determining how much he wants me and wants to be with me. It looked like he put more effort than I thought and I was blind or too emotional about the situation at the moment. On the other hand, I looked more like "whatever," the opposite of what I was trying to portray. I was like no wonder he has told me that I might come off as "playing hard to get" but I obviously don't mean to. I always did my best to let him know how much i wanted him and I always thought he never did his best to show how he really felt. But something that made me feel worse is how easy and forgiving I came off whenever he would let me down. Like the next day, we're texting like nothing happened and its his way of joking around his way to avoid serious convos. I like that he plays around but sometimes, he needs to know when not to play around. Idk if he is still serious about the convo just joking about it because he has a hard time being sensitive or he really can care less. I have a different perspective now after scrolling through our texts than I had before. I'm glad I had forgave him because I've got to know him more and more and didn't want to leave him without giving him another chance but it also looked like I gave him too many chances. Our whole relation looks almost the opposite of what I felt it was in the moment by looking at these texts. Idk what to believe about us or him. Idk if i should look at the big picture of these texts or remember how it was at that moment. Maybe the texts are an enlightenment and it's not what I have thought about him this whole time and he's been right. But I know that if he messes up again in any way, I'm not forgiving him like I had before. I seemed so weak. But I think I'll be ready to move on and not take him back again. It's like that quote where the guy didn't care what he did cause he knew she was always going to be there until one day she wasn't then it hit him.