Is it normal if i like him because he takes my pride away?
I have always been all about me and not in a conceited way but more of "if its not good for me then I'll move on." Easily, I would walk away. When it came to guys, I would put myself first. If he treated me wrong or I just wasn't happy, I would do something about it and not be afraid of losing him. It was just all about pride and ego. Now, I don't know what my current squeeze has done to me but I like it. It's like I have swallowed my pride for him and I'll do anything to be with him and make him happy. I think its cause I feel like I'm under him but in a good way, like he'll discipline me and not let me take advantage of him. I love that. I would never want to take him for granted or push him around. Even if I had the chance to, I know I would feel uncomfortable and just dishonest. I have been very unhappy with him sometimes but I put so much effort into making it work when I used to just stand up for myself and walk away with no worry. Now I get afraid of losing this guy. Its a sense of vulnerability I never felt before. I like it but it has its pros and cons. I can probably be with someone who makes me feel more like I can take over the world and possibly prideful again but I choose not to because idk...there's just a sense of sincerity and authenticity that I feel when I'm with him even when it hurts sometimes. It's just real and that's something that I think I won't get if I'm with someone who makes me feel all prideful again. But like I said, I choose to be with this guy for this reason out of the many but it just means I have to deal with the downs of it and that includes sometimes feeling powerless with him or low in confidence. Idk if thats just me but I could feel like I don't have enough support to pursue things. It's not like he tells me I can't do anything but he could put a little more effort in supporting me. At the end of the day, I love this guy and although we're technically single but still talking, I don't feel like being with anyone else so far. I'm all his. Girls exaggerate about wanting to be with a man who makes them feel like "Beyonce" or something but I think they forget that it feels good to have the man take over sometimes and feel that bit of weakness. They need to humble themselves down a bit. I feel humble with him like in touch with myself and not all about being strong and powerful but sometimes it can be rough. I just hope this is a good type of weakness.