Is it normal if i can't leave him?
To be honest, I don't have a lot of experience being involved with guys but because I don't just go for anyone. I've only had one bf and it took like two months of dating before making it official. I liked him cause he made me feel comfortable like I can be anything i wanted tk be and he was there no matter what. But then we broke up after 2 yrs. Now that I'm with someone else but hes not my bf, I chose to be with this guy, not because of his qualities or looks even tho those are bonuses, but because he's the first person I have ever truly loved. Friends and family say how they've never seen me like this before, so vulnerable and passionate for someone. My heart is why I'm still with him even with all the struggles. Some pple might say its cause of the "chase" but its not cause of that cause if it was, then I would probably have more experience w guys than I do right now. Being with him might be a challenge but ts worth it because of my feelings. You know they say we close our eyes at the most powerful times like when crying or praying and that's cause of how it FEELS not cause of what's in front of you. That's how I feel about my man right now although he's not completely mine. Sometimes we don't let go of the things that make us the saddest cause those are the same things that make us the happiest.