Is it normal if i am this confident about him?
So I have this thing where I know I'll get what I want. I know, I know it sounds really brat-ty and snobby but it's not like I ask for things and get them. It's more like, if I want something, I'm going to work for it until I get it. So when it comes to my bf, we are slowly getting more official and it feels good but there are all these obstacles we have to face. One of them is just a self-esteem issue. I might feel worthless to him, like I'm not good enough for him. I know he can do better than me and maybe he knows it too even if he chooses to be with me. I like that he accepts me for who I am, but you'll never truly feel loved until you love yourself and that's what I'm working on right now. I'm trying to convince him but more myself that I do deserve him and he's mine and I'm his. Other problems include his lack of effort which doesn't help me in building my self-worth for him. I feel like he doesn't try enough cause I'm not worth it. Well even with all of that, I'm going to make him realize that I am worth it and he can't do better than him. He's gonna see that no other woman can love him like I love him. Damn he means so much to me and I'm willing to cry my eyes out for him. Every single time I feel like giving up, knowing its worth it in the back of my mind makes me feel a little better. But that feeling of winning him, that feeling of finally making him realize how much I mean to him, how much I am worth it, how he won't be willing to lose me, will be the best feeling of satisfaction. I'm so confident that I can be with him and we'll be together in the end. I can't wait.