Is it normal i would want a break from him for this?

Okay I feel like I met "the one" too soon. I feel like he was thrown at me and at the least expected time which was right after I broke up w my ex to be free on top of other reasons. I told myself ya he's cute but not gonna settle down especially cause I want to be single right now. But he approached me and gradually we got closer. However, there's this thing about me that uhm I'm kind of known for and surprisingly havent gotten a real taste of it and its called jungle fever...lol. Yes I'm attracted to black guys and they are attracted to me. Idk there's just this thing that burns through my body when we come across each other. Yes I've had like a thing or two with a few but nothing serious which is why I'm kind of bummed I met my current guy too soon cause I haven't had the chance to explore that other field. To be honest, my ideal husband is someone like DIDDY; confident, hustler, motivator, handsome, great and the same sense of humor, good taste, etc. Oh and feel protected. I want to be able to date a man similar but I can't cause I'm involved with my guy who I also feel is "the one." I know u can't have two of "the ones" completely defeats the purpose ... but that's why I want to date someone like diddy and maybe were not compatible so I can throw that away. Me and my dude are compatible, were like twins and ya he has a few qualities of diddy that I like; confisent , hustler, same sense of humor, cute and handsome and good taste.

So basically I feel like I didn't have a chance to fulfill my fastasy to date a black guy. If anything, I would step away from my relationship right now just to satisfy my craving to date a black guy and who knows maybe this does end better with me and whoever he is. Is this normal ?