Is it normal i wish i can just be a bitch to him?
After everything he has put me through, I wish I can have the courage to stand up and yell at him and leave. Its not that easy. We have been through some ups and downs but we finally made progress that has gotten us closer. But there comes times when I get irritated and I wanna lash out to see how he will react and just to release all the stress in me but of course, I don't want to lose him. However, I think moving on is a good idea. So I wish I had the balls to finally just let go and leave even when things are going fine right now. But I don't want to make a mistake. Especially when Im with him, my frustration goes down and I guess it wasn't as bad as I thought. But it would feel so good to finally stand up and show him that Im not always going to be there for him. He's not a bad guy or anything, he just fucks up sometimes and doesn't notice his actions, and yes I have confronted him about them but he thinks its nothing to be upset about. Some of those things are he won't take me seriously, he'll leave me hanging for days and think its acceptable, he'll be mean to me, he won't show me affection in public, and other similar things. I think itll feel so good to show him Im not who he thought I was but my heart wants him and thats what holds me back.