Is it normal i want to do something every part of me screams is a bad idea ?

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I want to get back together with my ex I'm even thinking about marriage.

We've known each other for about 3 years and dated twice, once for about 3 months the second for about 16 months. Both times I started it and both times I ended it.

Now she's about to graduate from college(she's one year older than me) and the thought of not seeing her again and of someone else getting with her is messing with me.

I love her and she loves me I've known that for a long time, but our personalities clashed so much that the last time we dated she wore me out emotionally to the point that my friends said I looked dead on the inside.

I want to go on adventures in life and enjoy my youth and I'm scared that if I marry her I'll miss out on that, but I'm also terrified of loosing her as I do still love her.

Almost every part of me is screaming out that marrying her is a bad idea, but another part is reminding me that I love her and its also saying that I've always lived a very stable life and never hardly done anything crazy, so why not go for it?

Mainly apart of me wants to tell her what I'm thinking and what I want in life and ask her if she can support me in my dreams and be happy with it and if she says yes then ask her to marry me and elope, though again the rational part of me is screaming that's stupid and self destructive.

I know I should just move on but I just can't seem to do so, I remember how much I love her, and I can't forget how I stole her first kiss(I'm the only guy she ever dated); I remember despite all the arguments we had, I still knew that she would always love me, always be loyal, and stay by my side as long as I asked her to. But then when I think about the good things I also remember the arguments, our different life goals, and our clashing personalities draining me, to the point I was scared to talk to her for fear of making her angry and dealing with her craziness.

When things were bad they were really fucking bad but when they were good things were bliss.

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  • Tealights
    8 years ago

    It just sounds like you don't want to risk the future-you being alone, so you're willing to string this girl along until you're ready to settle down and tolerate her.

    Don't keep torturing this girl with your selfishness. Go travel. Learn more about yourself, and mature. You'll find another women who will love you 100%, and she'll be someone you can ACTUALLY love back and not just someone you're tolerating.

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    • Kaylie3968
      8 years ago

      I agree ^^

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  • That_Girl_You_Know
    8 years ago

    I think you should find another woman

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  • Pinger
    8 years ago

    You can try to date again, but cut that marriage talk

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  • mysistersshadow
    8 years ago

    Let her go you did twice before.

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  • deepdankstickygoo
    8 years ago

    Listen to your gut on this one. You are having doubts for good reason most likely.

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