Is it normal i want to disappear from everyone who knows me

We cannot become “restless souls” who wander without direction in regret and despair. We must calm ourselves by living life now, through the ups and downs, and accept that sooner or later we will receive our rest. One day you will be gifted the release of death, but until then all that matters is what you make of the dawn of each new day.

Do you even know what anti-social means?

Those were some good thought-provoking questions. I basically sat here thinking a lot of things for several minutes

you were spot-on with your last bit. I basically wanted to determine if this was some form of depression or if I'm just wired that way, cause if it was the former, then I would be compelled to do something about it

@the second paragraph, I don't know. Is indifference a reason? time and time again I have cut-off people. it's what I've done my entire life. as a kid relations got cut off because we changed our home a billion times. but then I started doing it myself, first it was all my highschool/neighbourhood folks. And since then it's been one person after another. I am this genuinely (I say genuinely cause I don't fake it) amazing person in the beginning that people grow to love and then after an undefined period of time I don't give a shit about them. Like really, I ignore their texts, calls, attention, with no remorse. gfs, it's been different, they never lasted more than 6 months and ended because I conveyed from the very beginning that it wasn't a good idea.

The handful of friends that have really meant a lot to me I have cut them off too, then gotten back together. rinse, repeat 2-3 times, before permanently cutting them off. Alas, family is what I cannot excise, and that fact hinders a lot of stuff in me

Part of me is okay with it, because it's what I want, but part of me isn't, because it's just so wrong, but the truth is, I just don't do any sort of relationships long-term.

It is why it would be so liberating and blissful to vanish away, and erase myself from everyone's memories.

Sometimes I wish I could do the same, but I wouldn't do the whole memory erase shabangle. I'd be like the mysterious person who mysteriously disappeared. Plus, it would be interesting to know if anyone did miss me.

I feel ya. I can't really put it into words but I often think something similar.

If you think you are causing people problems why don't you change your behavior? You're the only one who makes your choices so be who you would like to be instead of doing things you regret.