Is it normal i want to be attracted to black guys.

I am black, in my early 20's, and I have only been attracted to a black guy once. That one instance was in elementary school and I have literally never been attracted to another one since.

I have dated nothing but white and it has never felt right. Some of my relationships were long lasting with my longest one ending at the 3 year mark, but each relationship still felt empty to me. I have always found white men (and other races) attractive but my interest in them is dwindling and it has started to feel unnatural.

I've been able to share common interests with white males but lately I have noticed myself becoming more and more annoyed at the sense of humor of any white guy I meet. I am also growing tired of explaining my cultural differences and being close to someone who doesn't understand me or my feelings.

I am also sexually unsatisfied. I've only had sex with white men and I've never orgasmed.

I feel that I was meant to be with my own race but I can't make myself interested in any black guy to save my life. I have seen many black men who would generally be considered very attractive but I literally feel sick at the thought of getting intimate. I can't even keep eye contact with one. I turn down just about every black guy who hits on me like a reflex but then I feel disgusted at myself for doing so. I've been on a few dates with some smart and funny black men but I always felt horribly uncomfortable and I couldn't picture myself with them beyond friendship. This does not feel like a healthy preference at all.