Is it normal i want my mom to miscarry

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I'm am 22 and not yet independent. I can't even drive and have no way of learning how right now. My parents never taught me. Mom has somehow gotten pregnant even though she got her tubes tied right after having me. I haven't been able to fully wrap my mind around this. I can't fully accept it. I actually keep forgetting about it until I see her stomach and then I feel sick.

Since I was a child I've been starving for my mom's affection. She loves me but has never been very nurturing. She was a "tough love" type and whenever I would get upset and cry about anything she would respond with anger and hostility, screaming at me to toughen up. Her usual demeanor was charismatic and bubbly. I know she's not very mentally stable because she experienced years of sexual abuse has a child and teen, and 7 years of domestic abuse. I have also experienced my fair share of abuse. But I could never rely on her for emotional support. My biological dad is out the picture and my stepdad is an asshole.

I want her to miscarry so badly. I can't bear the thought of her attention being completely on this kid. I haven't even achieved independence yet. I can't even think of how to and now I feel like its going to be delayed because of this fucking kid. I have had no experience with taking care of kids. I don't like them and I've made damn sure to not get pregnant myself so I wouldn't have to deal with that bullshit but now there's going to be a crying baby in this house and I have to deal with that on top of dealing with my own severe emotional instability and depression. I feel like when mom has this kid, I won't have her anymore. I feel like I'll be losing her and I CAN'T HANDLE THAT.

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  • handsignals
    8 years ago | pl

    I really hope this helps OP: kingtermite is a fucking idiot and the Gypsysailor sails the world from his mother's basement.

    Beat you to it!

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  • sillygirl77
    8 years ago

    Someone else can teach you to drive. It sounds like you suffer from learned helplessness.

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  • RoseIsabella
    8 years ago

    This is gonna sound hella fucked up, but she'll probably neglect and abuse the new baby, if that's any consolation. Try not to let your feelings of jealously and or learned helplessness get the best of you. It's possible that if you end up helping with the baby that the care you give will be best care this baby receives. That baby might grow up to say my older sister/brother was the only one that loved and cared for me.

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  • NeuroNeptunian
    8 years ago

    When I was 16, my Mom got pregnant (on purpose, she wanted another kid) and I was so fucking pissed. She could never afford to take us to the doctor, buy us clothes or feed us and she literally was never home to take care of us and when she was home, she felt the need to express how she wish she never had us, hated us and then would proceed with the physical violence.

    It pissed me off that she could find it in her heart to care for a new child but couldn't have ever found it in her heart to even pretend that we were little more than obligations, mouths to feed. She lets Dad have his way with us and now that we are damaged, she is no longer interested in us, she wants to start fresh.

    When my brother actually came along though, all of the hurt pretty much went away. It went from being her pregnancy because she didn't want to bother with the remnants of a failed marriage to my awesome little baby brother. At this point, she can do whatever she wants and I will still be happy to have my brother.

    That said, I moved out when I was 18 and I am 23 and independent. At 18, I took it upon myself to deal with my mental issues and achieve independence and I'm not from a rich family or any of that shit, I'm working two jobs to get through school. Three if you count the reserves. As much as I sympathize with you, you need to take your life into your own hands now. You're an adult, keep telling yourself that your mental issues are a legit excuse and you will get nowhere.

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  • [Old Memory]
    8 years ago

    If your mom hasn't been there for you by now, why would she be there for you as an adult, with or without another kid? If you're having a lot of trouble, try a therapist or look for a friend.

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  • [Old Memory]
    8 years ago

    You are old enough to take care of yourself now. Being jealous of a baby when you are a full grown adult is unacceptible. You do not need to be dependant on others.

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  • anti-hero
    8 years ago

    Grow up. Get a job. Move out. Be a fucking adult.

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  • flyingnostalgia
    8 years ago

    Its normal

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    What a selfish little child you are for a 22 year old. I think mommy should chuck you out on your ear, so you won't have to suffer watching her love another child.
    I can't believe you actually posted this sick bit of self pity.
    I sincerely hope this is a troll. If not, you need to be pushed out of the nest to fly or die, you selfish bitch.

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