Is it normal i've always been tempted to kind of wanted to slut it up online?
I'm gonna be quick and to the chase. Let me just say that in my every day life I dress the farthest (and I mean THE farthest) thing from a slut, with the exception of at night in the summer when it's hot and nobody's going to see me anyways.
I have no sex drive. I blew that fuse out years ago. But I've always had a wild imagination, so often when I'm tired and getting ready for bed I'm left to that imagination and well, sometimes my imagination can carry over to actual actions. For example, for years I've always had this fantasy, or sort of desire, of going on online random websites (chatroulette, for example) all dressed up (I'm a big fan of cosplay and costuming) and pretty much screwing around with people I don't know. Because I know I'll never see them again.
I know what you're thinking, people have done this and have gotten bullied or otherwise seriously effected by this. I'm paranoid to a fault though so no matter what I do I plan to be concealed (the costuming and makeup would hide me enough, but I've always considered hiding at least parts of my face somehow by other means), and that's pretty much it.
I'm not doing this willy nilly hough. Not trying to offend,, but I refuse to do this to anybody more or less than like, 3 years younger/older than me. That's for my own comfort.
I've always wanted to do this, I've never done ANYTHING "bad" like this before but I've been holding myself back for years. You're all probably going to call me an idiot or something along those lines, but I'm just expressing this desire. What do you think? Should I go through with it? Knowing me I know I'll be 10x more cautious than I need to be. Or should I restrain myself like I have been? Also, is it normal?
I only know one other person (well, who was willing to express her experiences to me) to have done this, and you would never have guessed.
Thank you everybody.