Is it normal i think my eccentricity if creating problems?
I really want a job where I can wear a suit, look fabulous and be very proper and greet people. There is not many jobs like that but I just want to serve someone. I wanted to be something like a house manager but there is not many butler schools so its difficult. I have a really delusional sense of self. I am very eccentric but this identity is the one that keeps me happy so I really cant leave it. I tried to not be like this but I really cant help it. How do I be a little more normal and realistic?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgSJ7m1bEHk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFNdf4dNdF0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4lLYqCKaSI
The follow videos are kind of what im like. I try to hide it and be normal but its obvious what an eccentric person I am. The characters in the videos is Caster(Tron), Riddler(Batman), and Ayame(Fruit basket). Even when I am behaving as what I believe is "Normal" people always figure out im weird. Its impossible to hide it.