Is it normal i still don’t understand the way i behaved on my 13th birthday?
Ok, so I have a really embarrassing memory of my 13th birthday, and I may seem like a complete weirdo for it, but I’ll just share what happened.
I turned 13 in the year 2012, and tbh I didn’t think much of it. I didn’t think it was more special than any other birthday, and I asked for very simple things like books and cards for the Wii Shop and things like that. But instead my family surprised me by getting an Xbox 360, and I was excited at first, but then they said I wasn’t getting the other stuff, but we could get it later.
For one thing, I hadn’t asked for an Xbox 360 in three years at that point, and while that may not seem like much 3 years ago seems like a fucking ETERNITY when you’re 13. And my mom said things that made me embarrassed, saying this was every kid’s Dream and asked what I wanted most from my list, the books? She kept saying it was my 13th birthday, and like I said I didn’t consider that a big deal, and she thought I wouldn’t care and would say it was the best birthday ever.
But here’s where it gets REALLY embarrassing: I actually started crying. And I explicitly said as soon as I started “I don’t even know why I’m crying I’m not even that sad!” But eventually we returned it (the guy at the store was flabbergasted when my mom said I didn’t want it!) And then we went shopping for the things on my list.
It seems stupid now, but I just feel like some bratty spoiled rich kid when I think about it. Like I said, I used to want one really badly when I was 10, but I hadn’t thought about it for years at that point. Maybe I felt overwhelmed that they made a big deal out of being 13, or I didn’t like my expectations getting messed with, or maybe I just wasn’t into technological things anymore (I was still into video games but more often than not I would experience some technical difficulties and maybe I just assumed that would happen with this, I really don’t know).