Is it normal i still don’t understand the way i behaved on my 13th birthday?

Ok, so I have a really embarrassing memory of my 13th birthday, and I may seem like a complete weirdo for it, but I’ll just share what happened.

I turned 13 in the year 2012, and tbh I didn’t think much of it. I didn’t think it was more special than any other birthday, and I asked for very simple things like books and cards for the Wii Shop and things like that. But instead my family surprised me by getting an Xbox 360, and I was excited at first, but then they said I wasn’t getting the other stuff, but we could get it later.

For one thing, I hadn’t asked for an Xbox 360 in three years at that point, and while that may not seem like much 3 years ago seems like a fucking ETERNITY when you’re 13. And my mom said things that made me embarrassed, saying this was every kid’s Dream and asked what I wanted most from my list, the books? She kept saying it was my 13th birthday, and like I said I didn’t consider that a big deal, and she thought I wouldn’t care and would say it was the best birthday ever.

But here’s where it gets REALLY embarrassing: I actually started crying. And I explicitly said as soon as I started “I don’t even know why I’m crying I’m not even that sad!” But eventually we returned it (the guy at the store was flabbergasted when my mom said I didn’t want it!) And then we went shopping for the things on my list.

It seems stupid now, but I just feel like some bratty spoiled rich kid when I think about it. Like I said, I used to want one really badly when I was 10, but I hadn’t thought about it for years at that point. Maybe I felt overwhelmed that they made a big deal out of being 13, or I didn’t like my expectations getting messed with, or maybe I just wasn’t into technological things anymore (I was still into video games but more often than not I would experience some technical difficulties and maybe I just assumed that would happen with this, I really don’t know).

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  • Seems like you could have moved on mentally from wanting it, something that seems healthy. Maybe getting the xbox made you feel invalidated, like the books and whatever you asked for then weren't important at all and you get something you never got for three years and it's like... "Why did you wait until I didn't care about it to give it to me to then not get me anything else I wanted this year" it really is a big slap to the face. But being a 13yo who probably loved his mom, you felt guilty for not appreciating an expensive gift, and having an underdeveloped brain and mind didn't know how to handle yourself and crying was your subconscious getting you out of that state of mind.

    But you know, maybe she thought an Xbox was more for a 13yo (remember, she probably grew up with only a tv that probably only her dad mostly or maybe her mom occasionally controlled. Her imagining her ten year old son playing the games that are on Xbox probably made her cringe) which is why she waited and made it out to be a big deal. She probably had it in her head that every day or month or birthday you were lamenting not having it, and maybe she was feeling a little relief for finally getting it to you.

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  • MaxineFinnFoxen

    At least you've never carried your fat dog half way up a pine tree, then pee while up there with her, and step on the branches with your pee on the way back down all on your birthday.

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    • Boojum

      🤣

      I can see how that would be one of your most cherished childhood memories.

      It could have been much worse. In the worst-case scenario, you slip on your pee, fall off the tree, land on the dog, causing her to empty her bowels on you and internal injuries that kill her, while your instinctive attempt to break your fall also causes you to break your arm and you fracture your skull on a tree root.

      And this all occurs just as someone you've got a crush on just happens to come into view.

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      • MaxineFinnFoxen

        m8 my dog died last week and I didn't even have friends back then, I had no such thing as a crush

        Wait I still don't have friends

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    • Hubbard

      Oddlyspecific

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  • charli.m

    Teen hormones fuck you around. It's a lot of stuff happening and it's easy for kids that age to get over emotional.

    Also normal to embarrassed by shit you did then that you wouldn't dream of doing now.

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  • JellyBeanBandit

    That's not that bad for an embarrassing teenage memory.

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  • LOLFanProductions

    Teenage hormones were the worst! I think we can all agree to that!

    It seems you are still stuck in the past. I know cause I also struggle with my cringey past.

    There's a technique that is working with me. Basically whenever I get a cringey flashback I ask "Does this memory defy who I am today". Obviously my answer is no and I give myself credit for improving myself.

    I'm not saying it works for everyone, but it's worth a shot. Note: This doesn't happen overnight as it takes time.

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    • I’ll try that. I also try to think how dwelling on it is beneficial in any way, and what I could be doing instead.

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    • Sad18yo

      Am a teenager. Can confirm.

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  • FromTheSouthWeirdMan

    Bro I've done so much stupid things that I cringe and try not to think about it. Especially from age 13-25. I try not to think about it.

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    • leggs91200

      OH, I can imagine the cringe-worthy stunts you probably pulled.
      But you know who will have it REALLY bad when he gets close to 30? That one guy who is on steroids and always talking about his sex life. The hell was his name? Damn it escapes me.

      But yeah anyways...

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      • FromTheSouthWeirdMan

        Thats why I never did steroids. Just coke and heroin and everything else LOL. But them steroids fuck your balls up to where it doesnt produce testosterone. Unless you're competing in sports whats the point. Being super muscular looks goofy anyway.

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      • SkullsNRoses

        D0esnormaatter? That guy just vanished, maybe he joined a cult who would pardon him of his sordid sins if he forwent the internet forever?

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        • leggs91200

          Yeah that is the one. I was trying to think of his name but kept coming up with Sticksandstones or DingleBerryDouchebag for some odd reason, I knew that wasn't it.

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  • Mammal-lover

    I mean that's like asking for an xbox but getting a playstation. They are very diffrent critters. I don't blame ya, would be embarrassing though

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  • Clunk42

    You were a child. Children often react illogically.

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    • olderdude-xx

      Adults almost always react illogically too...

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  • Ditnyte

    Just sounds like you were a really bratty then. But the fact you are embarrassed by it means you have grown and aren’t like that anymore. I think we all have that really embarrassing story from when we were a kid

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  • leggs91200

    Well, sometimes we have to forgive ourselves on the grounds that we were just kids.

    I know I had a few b-days and christmas when I was a kid where I acted like a spoiled-ass little shit.
    When I was 11, one Xmas eve our parents were passing out presents to me and my sister. She was pouting cause she wanted to pass them out, and since the process seemed slow, I thought I would speed it up by saying, "Is this all we are getting for Christmas?" Thank you good Lord that I didn't get my ass tanned over that remark.

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