Is it normal i miss 5th grade?

I feel really old typing this statement, but I was in 5th grade ten years ago. It’s hard for me to explain, but there’s something about that time that felt very important to me (warning: there will be talk of puberty and sexual thoughts of a child, so be prepared). As my warning suggests, this was the time I went through puberty, and I remember thinking a lot of the girls in my class were hot. Kinda out of the blue I remembered one in particular, and wished I had talked to her more (and just so we’re clear, I’m talking about how I felt AT THE TIME, and most of these girls, including the one I mentioned, I saw throughout high school as well and thought they were still good looking).

Idk, maybe it’s because of how older I am now and hearing from my sisters how complicated dating is, I wish I had done it at an earlier age when it was simpler (and yes it was common for us back then. So much so that other kids thought it was weird I didn’t have a girlfriend, even only a few years later one called me a bunch of homophobic slurs through the internet. Needless to say I blocked him, but I’m getting sidetracked).

But beyond that, I wish I could go back with the knowledge I have now. I thought I knew a lot (mainly sexual stuff) and later found out through our sex Ed classes in 5th and 6th grade that I didn’t know quite as much as I thought, but I caught on pretty fast. I remember seeing outrage on a Facebook page I followed a few years later that they were teaching kids of that age sex, with some commenters saying they never heard of it at 10, and I was thinking “how is that possible? That’s ALL we ever thought about at 10!”

But despite all this it was pretty innocent, at least by comparison. Nobody expected us to handle adult responsibilities, the teachers and students weren’t mean to younger students, most of us enjoyed participating in class activities, and it probably just seemed good by comparison because the previous year I was bullied a lot but I wasn’t in 5th grade. But admittedly I was pretty narcissistic, too technology obsessed and hated reading, simply because that was popular and I only cared about being “cool.” If I went in without that type of attitude maybe things would have been better.

I’m sorry if I’m just rambling on but I’m very nostalgic about this time in my life and I feel like if I was a bit more outgoing in the past I wouldn’t be such a basket case now!