Is it normal i'm waiting for when my parents pass away so i can love them?

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I dont even live with them. And I havent talked to either in months. Haven't seen them in 4 years now. Not too fond of them but dont hate them either. I believe they did the best being parents that they were capable of.

Yet I know I will breathe a quiet sigh of relief when they pass away, and that I will love and cherish them a lot more than now, with them still alive. And that I will be closer to them more than ever once they are gone. I dont want them to die. Nor am I literally "waiting" until they do. But... yeah

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  • deepthought33
    9 years ago

    When my grandfather died my dad told me it didn't work out that way. Hindsight is 20/20 though I guess.

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  • drutch
    9 years ago

    I'm guessing you also enjoy little in life. Well unless it is in some way dangerous or outside social norm. Sociopaths don't experience the same empathy that others do. We understand that others have response to stimuli in their environment but also recognize that response, for us, is a choice. Others see that as apathetic. In fact, most of us wish we could feel or be "normal". But, we tend to just observe the drama that plays out around us. The more enterprising of us may seize upon the opportunity to intervene in the drama to benefit ourselves.

    You are waiting for them to die, thinking, such a profound moment must surely make you feel something. It won't. You will only feel pitty and sadness for yourself. You will never know true love, friendship or empathy. You will only mimic those around you until you decide to pretend you are one of them, or decide to play god.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      Nah. I enjoy tons in life, I find joy in the most simplistic things. I am a risk taker, and adrenaline junkie though. Seems like you're implying us both as sociopaths. While I have wondered if I was one, I think I may have only mild tendencies. Have you been professionally been told you were a sociopath though?

      You are right. My parents dying won't make me feel something, it will make me feel nothing, like a sense of freedom and relief. And THAT will feel good. I will feel good on their behalf too, as they have lived a life filled with turmoil, delusion and conflict, and they will finally be gifted the sweet release of death. I have always been detached from my family.

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  • pusssyeater
    9 years ago

    You're cold, bitch.

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  • cupcake_wants
    9 years ago

    this is a weird way to think about them. you ought to just send them a holiday card or something with something positive to let them know having you was a good idea. lol

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      By something positive on a card you mean something affectionate? Because doing that is not me.

      Pretty sure they know having me was a good idea because of how much they love me and are proud of me for not being a fucked up guy. I simply dont and cant return that sentiment while they are alive.

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      • cupcake_wants
        9 years ago

        well... i guess just because having and raising a child is a labor of love. Being affectionate per se wouldn't be required, just something to let them know you care.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          9 years ago

          Fine. But if I let them know that I appreciate them and "care," and that makes them start bombarding me with love and affection for several days, I'm going to find you and strangle you with a rubber band.

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          • cupcake_wants
            9 years ago

            why do you hate affection so much? jeesh you must hate dogs and girlfriends and kids and love in general.

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            • Anonymous Post Author
              9 years ago

              Not at all. I love cats. I also like kids, am good with them, and could happily spend an entire day with a kid. I enjoy giving and receiving affection with girlfriends but with boundaries. Certain levels of affection freak me out.

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