Is it normal i'm very weird about physical touch?
Let me preface by saying that I've never truly felt in love or 100% comfortable around another person when it comes to physical touch. I'm 24 and have extremely limited experience with dating and relationships, by the way.
It takes me a very long time to get comfortable with being touched by someone new, period. I haven't been in a relationship for a very long time (long story, but it's by choice, largely due to my weird issue here along with other fear-related issues), but when I was newly in one, I was initially pretty tense when it came to physical touch. I could tolerate hugs and hand holding, but it took me awhile to get comfortable with cuddling and kissing, and I never did enjoy kissing at all.
Once I'm comfortable with someone, I absolutely love to cuddle with them. It's probably one of my favorite things in the world, actually. It's one of the very few things I miss about being in a relationship.
However, the more sexual physical touch becomes, the more I get freaked out and scared, and hate it. I've never really done much with a guy because of this, as I couldn't get past it. Even the thought of sexual touch makes me extremely uncomfortable and scared. I'm also afraid of being naked in front of a boyfriend.