Is it normal i'm turned on by my wife cheating on me
A little background first, I'm 32 my wife is 40. We've been married for 8 years. We don't have any children together but she has 4 kids from previous relationships by 4 different guys. She had her tubes tied after her last child so she can't have anymore. She's told me before we married that she has slept with around 50 guys before me. I also knew that she was capable of cheating since she was cheating on her boyfriend with me when we first met. So I knew upfront that she had been around. I guess I thought I could change her. Well 2 years ago I found out that she was cheating on me and she contracted herpes which I recently found out she has given to me also. Obviously I was very upset about her cheating on me and later finding out that she has given me a std. I was ready to leave her. I was very angry and felt betrayed. Lately the more I think about her cheating on me it really turns me on. The fact that she had such a lack of regard for or me, our marriage and even herself to sleep with another guy unprotected without fear of the consequences really turns me on. I haven't told her this yet but I'm really turned on by the thought of it. I want her to sleep with more guys and just really whore herself out. Is this normal? By the way I'm a very attractive guy, I could have pretty much any woman I want, I have a very good job my own everything I could easily move on and find happiness elsewhere. My wife on the other hand has nothing. She doesn't work, I am the sole financial support for her, her 4 kids ages 21,20, 16 and 10 and also her 61yo mother who lives with us. I've been told by my friends and family since we've started dating that I can do better than my wife and that I took a huge step down when I married her. Is it normal for me to be willing to reduce myself to the point where I just let my wife sleep with whoever she wants? Has any other guys on here done this? And should I do it?